It's been a while since I've written. There's been a lot on my mind. I have been working on changing my mind set from fear-based negative thinking to one of openness, gratitude, and positivity. I actually do believe self-help books help if you're invested in changing. One of the reasons I have been actively working on changing my thoughts is because I have some major things happening or potentially happening in my life. I have my trip to Amsterdam in just under one month, which is so incredibly trippy. I'm so excited to have my first solo adventure. I also have to decide if now is the right time to make a big leap and move again. It would involve lots of trust and belief in myself. It would mean I would be taking on more responsibility and leadership in a different job, it would mean I would have to put myself out there again and make new friends and set up a new life and experiences somewhere else, and it would mean leaving something that is great and very very comfortable.
I have considered myself a bit of a reluctant leader for a while now. I never used to speak up in school even when I had something to contribute that would have really added to the conversation. I got stronger and stronger at this as time went on and have been made to take on more leadership through grad school and my job. I know I can still do more. I need to do more. I have always said that what I do has to make a difference. If what I do doesn't make a difference, what even is the point? So stay tuned. Who knows where life will go from here?
