The Knowing

I have the knowing back. For those who might not know, the knowing is a term from one of my favorite authors, Susane Colasanti. It's all about following your heart and following your destiny. Follow the knowing to where you are meant to be or who you are meant to be with.

As you all know, I've been on the fence about staying here in Chicago or moving on to Colorado, or now, possibly even Phoenix, next year. It's a struggle because I've really grown to feel like this is home, I know my way around now, and I have my places here now. But over the last few weeks, the knowing has come back stronger that it's almost time to move on. We were offered a chance to interview for some positions in the southern suburbs of Chicago this week and when I read it I realized I didn't want it. Gut instinct, the heart, the knowing, whatever you want to call it says to be patient and wait and I will find my ideal internship. Being patient is tough too.

I pulled the best wisdom card a few nights ago. It says:

"I am at peace. I relax and enjoy life. I know that whatever I need to know is revealed to me in the perfect time and space sequence."

This is exactly what I needed to hear and what I need to remember.