Waxing ridiculous

You know what's fun and really pointless? Thinking back on your past and your decisions and reflecting on where you are and where you'd be if you'd made different choices. It's pointless because obviously we can't change it now, but it's fun to think about how interconnected everything is. Pretty trippy. Like just start with this one--What if I hadn't gone to Rockhurst?

Well, I wouldn't have met Heather, Casey, or Jacqueline, among many other people. I wouldn't have majored in Psychology in all likelihood or at least may not have been as inspired by it as I was due to Dr. Nicolai. I wouldn't have Simon. I wouldn't have gone to Disney World twice by now or probably at all. I wouldn't have had the career services people to point me to Crittenton for a job which in turn led me to pursue Bonjour which in turn inspired me to school psych so I probably wouldn't be in Chicago either. Also, if I wasn't at RU, I wouldn't have gone to MPA in Chicago either, which is when I first started dreaming of living there. If I hadn't met Heather, I also wouldn't be who I am today. College might have totally sucked. Jeez, weird stuff. Man, am I happy I went to Rockhurst. Even if I am in mounds of debt.

It's also strange to think back to yourself as a child or teenager and see the differences between that self and the you that is you now. Like tonight, I was thinking about myself at age 14, when I graduated 8th grade. 10 and a half years ago. I was 4 inches shorter, much chubbier, had bangs, hair to my waist, and glasses, and that's just the physical differences! I was much more shy and quiet and unsure, I could barely stammer out words when meeting new people, I had few close friends, I was much more black and white in my thinking (thought just like mom and dad), I thought people who ran were messed up in the head, and I'm sure I felt misunderstood. :) Now I'm so much more confident, I go for what I want, I'm living pretty much on my own in Chicago, I can't imagine not being physically active, and I have friends and people who care about me all over the country.

I'm liking this whole period of my life right now. Intimacy vs. isolation for the win! ;) Erickson nerd points.