Seize the day

I'm going to Amsterdam! After my trip to Europe last summer, you could say that I'm addicted now. I got a new credit card that has awesome sign on bonuses and travel rewards and was able to use points to pay for the flight. I'm going for a week over spring break. This will be my first solo trip. I'm unbelievably excited and also nervous. I want to see the fields of tulips, the Anne Frank house, and all of the museums. I want to wander the streets, bridges, and canals on foot and by bike. I want to try all of the foods and take pictures and meet new people. If not now, when? Life is too damn short to have regrets. Travel is life to me. I can't wait to have another new experience.

I'm still undecided as to my next move. I may end up staying at my current job. I may end up moving cities. I haven't figured out what I want the most yet. I am so blessed here that it makes it hard to make the move to leave. I'm just looking at all my options right now.  This equals major emotional turmoil a lot of the time. Tears often. I am happy here, but I never planned on being here forever. But staying another year wouldn't mean I'd have to be here forever. And leaving wouldn't mean I couldn't come back. See? This is my brain these days. So, in between job apps and interviews and thinking about do I want to stay at my job and try try try to help those kids some more, I will take some time to plan this adventure to Amsterdam. I cannot wait. An God, please give me some clarity on the rest of my life. A love of travel is the only certainty.